My constant pain

I haven’t written in awhile because blogging was making my pain worse. It was reminder after reminder of the pain I live in.

I’ve had the stimulator for almost 3 months and it’s working fine but my old back pain is back and back worse than ever.

What do you do to manage it? Please tell me because I need help.

It’s been awhile…

I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a bit but I think I needed a little break.

The reason for the break is that having the stimulator implant isn’t going as well as the trial did. I had about 80% relief during the trial and maybe about 30% with the implant. Plus, no one can really explain why there’s such a difference and it’s frustrating. That trial week was so wonderful despite not being able to shower and having everything external.

Hopefully things will turn around. I really am trying to stay optimistic.

One week from tomorrow

I start the spinal cord stimulator trial in eight days. It can’t get here soon enough because I need help with the pain. The wait is driving me a little crazy.

I am going to upload videos during the trial and most likely for a week or two after I get the implant (positive thinking). I’ve watched other people’s videos and they helped me so hopefully I can help someone too.

Side note…

For the first time in almost two years I used my cane. It’s just agony to put any pressure on my left leg.

Proud Moment

Today, I reached 250 straight days of learning Spanish on Duolingo. I’m very proud about this accomplishment. It’s nice to know that with everything going on in my life that I still managed to keep this streak going.

My goal is to reach 365 days in a row. funnily enough, I started writing this entry at 2:50.

Ralph Fiennes

Mornings are the worst part of my day.

This morning I opened YouTube and started watching a video where Ralph Fiennes breaks down his most famous roles. I’ve always had this image in my head about his personality before ever actually reading/watching something about him. Turns out he’s kind of a big goof ball! I realize I should never judge someone without finding out more about that person.

And yes, Voldemort cheered up my morning.